感恩之心 ~ Gratitude

圆满的结束了这一天。在回家的路上，亲不自禁的觉得其实自己很幸运；虽然去年经历了许多波折及极大的，痛到要死的心碎，今年有些许的坎坷（都是过去事），可却有好友守护在身旁。我觉得这是老天送来的天使（在完成他的使命），而我突然对fulfilling our purpose有更深一层的了解 （老天都是送天使给我们，只是完成不一样的使命，呈现不一样的面貌而以）。还有还有，才在前几天突然有个念头/小小的梦想，就是希望有一天能放孔明灯，今天在沙滩上，就有人放灯了！！！虽然不是自己放的，可却也一样能享受到那美！（老天真的有在听耶！即便是最小的愿望。）
然而，下车之时，心存感恩，我真的感觉到有天使和恩典包围着。我想，心存感恩时，就是离老天最近的时候了。

 

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A happy end to my day. On the way home in my friend's car, my thoughts started drifting. I thought that actually, I am very lucky. Last year from Feb, I had a couple of painful experiences in my life, which included the end of a relationship, the loss of my grandfather and my resignation from my job (ah, the job thing had another story altogether but suffice it to say, half of me wasn't ready to leave so I had some emotional stuffs resulting from that too) all within 1-2 months from each other; so the emotional stuffs I had to deal with last year were enormous. I felt like I was going to die from the pain of heartbreak.

This year from last, my career path hasn't really been all that smooth-sailing too, but oh well, I'm sure there's a Divine plan behind it, maybe to force me to look within and to be honest with myself and what I really wanna do.

 

Anyway, given that all, I thought I'm still the luckiest girl in the world because I still have one good friend who'd been with me throughout. No, he didn't stick around all the time, but he didn't disappear when I was at my worst. And when we would go out together, he'd pay for me (of course sometimes and whenever I can, I'd auto pay him back) etc. But more than that my Angel buddy, which I privately termed him, would pick me up, send me home, listened to me, etc. I don't think he did very extraordinary things, but, to me, it felt as he's an Angel hovering around me, protecting me, helping me to heal. And he's around to give his help when I needed it. I feel like he's an Angel Heaven has sent to me (fulfilling his mission) - a psychic Shaman I once spoke to said he's helping me to heal). That night I had a deeper understanding about what it meant by 'fulfilling our purpose'.

 

And just recently I had a sudden wish to fly a 'Kong Ming lantern'.

And then just that night, a bunch of young men at ECP were flying it! Although I didn't get to fly it myself, but all the same I still got to enjoy the beauty of the light against the night sky.

(Heaven really does listen! And fulfil our wishes no matter how small.)

 

With all these thoughts passing through my head, I felt a sense of gratitude. And when I got down from the car, I swear I felt the presence of Angels and Grace surrounding me. I think, when we have gratitude in our hearts, that's the time when we're nearest to the Divine.