The Science of Change

Argh.

I'd wanted to share this video I just watched, it's so important I felt I had to share it, but unfortunately, there isn't a function here that allows us to embed videos.

So, the only next best thing I can do, is to provide the link here:

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151651881662528

For me, this gives extra credence to why what we think is so important, because it literally becomes who we are over time.

Enjoy.

Followup from Gratitude Post

Looking at my past posts, a thought suddenly occurred to me: I believe there ARE people out there reading my posts, and I've just written one about my personal experience relating to gratitude, and a thought came to me, that I believe it's not always possible or easy for some people to have gratitude in their hearts for the experiences they have gone through. It may not even be realistic, because there ARE people out there who HAVE suffered from traumatic experiences.

 

I remembered I came across this video clip of Dr. Wayne Dyer, speaking about a woman and her near death experience. She recounted that one incident, she had a date with a Marine guy (I think) and then he took her out somewhere remote, raped her, strangled her and threw her body over the cliff to die. As a result of that incident, she was left paralysed from the waist down for...20 over years I think (I can't remember the exact number), and doctors told her she'd never walk again. She first met Dr. Wayne Dyer at a seminar in a wheelchair, and he was so touched by her story that he walked over to her and gave her his purple beret. She vowed that she will return his beret to him...walking.

 

A few months later in his seminar, the very same woman was present, and in front of the entire roomful of participants, she walked painstakingly step by step on a walking aid towards the front of the room. She told the story in front of the room to everyone who was present, and how she decided to forgive her attacker when she read the news of him in jail, and who later died. She even called his mother to tell her what happened, and that she forgave him.

 

It was a powerful story, made more so by the very miracle of her being able to walk again. The title of the clip, if I didn't remember wrongly, was 'Anything is possible'. I think, if we really have a strong enough willpower, literally anything is possible. Where people once thought medical prognoses as final, there have been reports of miracles like these. And this was only one of them.

 

I thought about things like these, and I feel, although it is important to have and express gratitude and to have an attitude of gratitude, I also think that it's important to honor ourselves with what we are experiencing and feeling at the time, and most importantly to be gentle and forgiving with ourselves.

 

Babies and children

宝宝和小孩的灵魂很单纯，很美。在楼下的公园走，有一位看似刚学会走路的宝宝和他的爷爷，我靠近他们时打了个喷嚏，宝宝竟转过头来给了我一个阳光般灿烂，美丽的笑容，温暖了我的心。
我记得有一次在地铁里有一位小宝宝，在妈妈的怀里，我就站在她们的面前。我不经意的一直望着小宝宝，后来宝宝转过头来对我笑 - 是一个天使般的笑容。我立刻感觉到宝宝的能量不一样。有一种很纯，很美的能量，直接穿透我的心。我觉得那天我很荣幸的遇见一个Crystal Baby.

 

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Babies and young children have very beautiful souls. I was at the garden downstairs having a walk, and connecting with nature, and I came across a little toddler and his grandfather. As I was nearing them I sneezed, and the baby, who was initially admiring a butterfly, turned his head and gave me a beautiful, bright and innocent smile which warmed my heart.

I remembered there was once I was in the MRT, and I was standing near this mother and baby (who was lovingly held in a baby carrier); for some reason I kept gazing at the baby, and then the baby turned his/her head and gave me a beautiful, otherworldly, angelic smile. The reason I described as 'otherworldly' because right away, I felt that the baby's energy was different. There was a pure, beautiful energy through that smile. It went straight to my heart and I swear that something shifted inside me. It left me pondering because I knew something was different. I believed that that day, I had the honor of meeting a Crystal Baby.

感恩之心 ~ Gratitude

圆满的结束了这一天。在回家的路上，亲不自禁的觉得其实自己很幸运；虽然去年经历了许多波折及极大的，痛到要死的心碎，今年有些许的坎坷（都是过去事），可却有好友守护在身旁。我觉得这是老天送来的天使（在完成他的使命），而我突然对fulfilling our purpose有更深一层的了解 （老天都是送天使给我们，只是完成不一样的使命，呈现不一样的面貌而以）。还有还有，才在前几天突然有个念头/小小的梦想，就是希望有一天能放孔明灯，今天在沙滩上，就有人放灯了！！！虽然不是自己放的，可却也一样能享受到那美！（老天真的有在听耶！即便是最小的愿望。）
然而，下车之时，心存感恩，我真的感觉到有天使和恩典包围着。我想，心存感恩时，就是离老天最近的时候了。

 

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A happy end to my day. On the way home in my friend's car, my thoughts started drifting. I thought that actually, I am very lucky. Last year from Feb, I had a couple of painful experiences in my life, which included the end of a relationship, the loss of my grandfather and my resignation from my job (ah, the job thing had another story altogether but suffice it to say, half of me wasn't ready to leave so I had some emotional stuffs resulting from that too) all within 1-2 months from each other; so the emotional stuffs I had to deal with last year were enormous. I felt like I was going to die from the pain of heartbreak.

This year from last, my career path hasn't really been all that smooth-sailing too, but oh well, I'm sure there's a Divine plan behind it, maybe to force me to look within and to be honest with myself and what I really wanna do.

 

Anyway, given that all, I thought I'm still the luckiest girl in the world because I still have one good friend who'd been with me throughout. No, he didn't stick around all the time, but he didn't disappear when I was at my worst. And when we would go out together, he'd pay for me (of course sometimes and whenever I can, I'd auto pay him back) etc. But more than that my Angel buddy, which I privately termed him, would pick me up, send me home, listened to me, etc. I don't think he did very extraordinary things, but, to me, it felt as he's an Angel hovering around me, protecting me, helping me to heal. And he's around to give his help when I needed it. I feel like he's an Angel Heaven has sent to me (fulfilling his mission) - a psychic Shaman I once spoke to said he's helping me to heal). That night I had a deeper understanding about what it meant by 'fulfilling our purpose'.

 

And just recently I had a sudden wish to fly a 'Kong Ming lantern'.

And then just that night, a bunch of young men at ECP were flying it! Although I didn't get to fly it myself, but all the same I still got to enjoy the beauty of the light against the night sky.

(Heaven really does listen! And fulfil our wishes no matter how small.)

 

With all these thoughts passing through my head, I felt a sense of gratitude. And when I got down from the car, I swear I felt the presence of Angels and Grace surrounding me. I think, when we have gratitude in our hearts, that's the time when we're nearest to the Divine. 

I'm back!

So, I'm back.

 

I'm back after...posting my last blog in...2008. That's like...3-4 years?!! Wow, that's a long time.

 

So, what made me inspired to start writing again? Well, a psychic/Shaman/clairvoyant Native American I spoke to told me that I have 'some gifts', and one of them is in writing. She thought I can make a lot of money out of writing, just not immediately. Well, to be honest I didn't receive a lightning bolt (haha) from that revelation; just that my Angel cards ALSO show books and author now and then when I pick my daily messages; but really, more than that was because today especially, I feel the need to express. Just to express in words mostly what I feel inside of me, and this is one avenue I can do so entirely in my own space.

 

Usually I don't speak much at home, at home I'm really an introvert. Sometimes, I feel a lot of stuffs inside me, but I just don't know how to, nor really want to express them; or more like I haven't found an avenue to express them without judgements. Cos usually when I share things with my friends, I always get feedback, meaning, advice. Friends would almost always come back to me with advice, or what I should do, or how to do, how I should be, etc. I didn't really need any of those. (Of course, I understand friends usually are well-meaning and they try to be helpful, or simply, just a way of communicating, which is all really fine and well; I wouldn't want to be speaking with someone without feedback either. The thing here is, it is my....issue to learn.)

 

 

I am starting to realise, looking back, that because I have been listening TOO MUCH to outside suggestions, that I lost a sense of who I really am. Have you had that feeling before? How it manifested in my consciousness is, I think of something I have read, or the trainers/friends I have been listening to, and then I started thinking, ok, this is should I 'SHOULD BE', how a good person 'SHOULD BE', and then I started acting in that way. The problem is, I have many of those instances and I find myself increasingly, constantly questioning myself, the way I should be and behave, etc. Of course, this is not to say that all those stuffs I have read, all the books that the spiritual teachers and writers have written are no good, or that the trainers/teachers whom I have listened to, who have been teaching, are 'no good', on the contrary, I do believe there are good materials out there, and that all those books that the spiritual writers have written, are experiences they have gone through, and learnings that have came to them. Of that, I cannot judge, nor wish to.

 

What I feel is that, after a certain degree of reading, absorbing information/teachings, etc, we need to learn to......DISCERN FOR OURSELVES. And that is by no means a one day journey, or a shortcut. It could very well be a lifetime journey of self-discovery. And, that journey is exactly what I'm embarking on now.

 

 

 

 

 



Been so busy lately; after the shift to bro's house, I fell sick on and off for 3 weeks. Then 2 months before I signed up with Maum Meditation Centre, I've been going to the centre on and off every 2-3 days...somehow I just enjoyed going there, getting nice cooked Korean meals, sitting down with other members to have our meals and chitchat...feels like a 2nd home to me.

Yesterday just returned from a children's camp at Princess Elizabeth Primary School, as one of the instructor. It was a 'crash course' in the camp as previously I had nil experience as an instructor. But it was fun although there were stressful moments when I was afraid I wouldn't know what to do or mess things up...but I still enjoyed myself tremendously. I missed the whole experience somewhat when it has ended; yesterday afternoon when I returned home, I caught up on my sleep; I felt feelings of sadness and feelings of missing the whole camp and experience and that woke me up...

Hmm...hope there'll be another one soon...

A Little Practise of Appreciation and Gratitude

I was feeling down yesterday, and confiding my low feelings to a friend of mine. Shortly after that I happened across a post made by another friend in facebook, of which he was sharing about appreciation of his domestic helper. The short note warmed my heart and helped lift my spirits somewhat, for, on a certain level, I can feel my friend's appreciation of the 'simple things in life'...that short little note reminded me at that moment that appreciation of the things we have in our life, here and now, no matter how little, really does change our perspectives about life and the people around us. When our perspectives change, our emotions change; we help to bring peace and contentment into our hearts. Even though such moments may be short, it is a very good start and reminder how such an outlook can be used or practised everyday to bring brighter perspectives and positive beliefs into our mindsets, to replace gloomy or negative ones.

I don't always remember to have appreciation or gratitude for my loved ones around me, nor the things I have right at that moment, but when I do, my whole being is always replaced by a feeling of peace and contentment...