Tendered my resignation yesterday after lunch. Just before that, broke the news to WP, and boy...was she shocked. Prior to that, Jas was the first one to know, and Li Li. Till now, only Jas, Li Li and Christine know where I'm headed for. Didn't reveal to the rest where and what my new co will be. Not sure why, but just don't feel like telling, for the moment at least. Maybe I'm just trying to keep the feeling of secrecy.
Hmm...when I first heard of this opening from an industry acquaintance, he asked if I'll be interested and to send my resume in. I complied at the time thinking that I'm not totally serious bout changing my job, nor do I expect to be called (although I did harbour thoughts of moving on, only that I wasn't looking aggressively. My thinking at that time was just to send it in and see what happens next, since he urged me to. Shortly after that the MD called me up and we talked at length trying to understand each other's expectations, objectives, goals and the like. After that it was a lull for a short period of time, but that was after I learned that the office is located at Alexandra Road. Right after my first thought was that I'd reject the job offer if I was offered one. And I didn't expect the MD to call me back; but when he did, asking to meet up for a talk, I accepted as I thought it wouldn't seem good to reject right away. So I met up with the MD and the rest, as they say, is history. I still had distance concerns at the time, but the MD expected an answer from me the next day. All in all I struggled really hard with my decision at the beginning, from outright resistance, to carefully measured decisions, to acceptance. I went through no small amount of struggle, as I really couldn't bear to leave my colleagues; but, I reasoned with myself that, 3 years down the road, I'd still be in the same position, doing the same things, gaining the same small, narrow scope.
Looking back, everything happened at a very fast pace, all in a short space of 3 weeks. And now, I have accepted the position and am finally moving on. It seems a little surreal, after working in a familiar environment around familiar faces for 4 years, that I am finally moving on. It may not sound like a big deal, especially for veterans in this industry of 10 to maybe 20 or even 30 odd years, but so far, this is the longest holding job since I graduated from poly.
Yesterday night chatted with Jas and WP via MSN. The poor girls seemed pretty affected by my moving on; but I believe by next Wed (which is my last day with them), they would have more or less accepted the fact. I guess Thurs and the following week will be a test for us all, sans my presense. I'm sure they will feel the loss for a period of time, but eventually life will go on. That applies to me too. Needless to say, I am excited at the thought of a new environment, new colleagues, new exposure and the training I will receive. But right at this moment, I feel a trifle melancholy, like a pall hanging over us all. Pink even uttered that she felt sad, as I'm sure most of the girls will. Even Jas seemed a little less 'bright' today, and she has probably sighed no fewer than 5 times since I first confided in her about the new prospect.
Yeah, I felt near to tears too, yesterday when I chatted with them. I think next Wed will be really, really hard for all of us *sob* I feel sad about leaving them, and I feel sad when I see them sad. This morning the rest of the dept had a meeting, and we talked about what was discussed during the meeting. When Irene mentioned that Eve was definitely sad about it, boy, my heart sure feels heavy.
*sob* 真的好舍不得!!
