Wednesday, July 27, 2005

A Ray Of Light

Phew...finally...able to sit down and type uninterrupted...after having tossed together some salads to be brought to work the next day...ha ha...nothing pleases me more than munching on salads...healthy living, you understand...and doing a couple of other chores...the night's almost over for me...I promised myself early nights this week...after having rushed through life in the last couple of months...turning up for rehearsals...doing shows...attending vocal lessons...it was hectic, hectic, hectic...period. While I love doing what I do outside of work life...I do wish at times that it will slow down every now and then...
Well...since my first post...I've received a couple of positive commentaries...and I just wanna say...thank you! For Ad who said my thoughts inspired him and said he looked forward to my posts...thank you sooo much! You have no idea...that's the best compliment anyone can pay me...granted, I didn't set out to inspire when I first put those thoughts into words...but I'm glad you can find inspiration in what I've written...thank you too SM...for your compliments when you said I've written very well...I hope you will keep 'tuning in' to my blogs...ha ha...any more swell-headed and I'll have to hold my head in my hands...
Hmm...I actually felt more at peace these few days (and less of that restless feeling)...after wording my thoughts...perhaps that's because I had a fantastic weekend? Did a show at Jurong on Sat night...and after that went with the girls to karaoke...it was totally cool...all of us enjoyed each other's company...at least I enjoyed their company...I could only hope it was the same for them...I guess, what I liked bout our little group is that everyone is totally committed out of their passion for pursuing their interests...thus it made our connection simple and uncomplicated...
Hmm...Ad I guess you could relate to what I've said in my first post because you probably felt the same way...come to think of it...I suppose many S'poreans do...not knowing their real direction...not knowing what their true calling is...not knowing what it is they really really wanna do...so we...like so many others...just 'bumped' along in life...taking what comes our way...or we see some others doing something and we thought: hey that seems like a great idea...and then we felt like following suit...
Hmm...I've often felt that way myself...but one thing I keep reminding myself is...don't be afraid to explore...to follow my dreams...after all...if one doesn't have dreams...he doesn't have anything...it's from our dreams we may be doing what we do today...
"Don't be afraid to step out and try something new, because that's much more attractive than trying to be like someone else~Frankie Knuckles"

Thursday, July 21, 2005

My First, Myself

Well...finally I got my first blog going...and my first post up...feeling a sense of satisfaction I should say...I've been wanting to do this a little while ago...finally got down to getting it up...I can really get used to this...ha ha...feels a little strange though...putting my thoughts where everybody can view them...

Been feeling pretty restless recently (could it be due to the lack of sleep?)...finally I've completed my part-time studies (1 of my 3 resolutions 4 years? ago...what's the point of setting resolutions when you know you won't get down to fulfilling them?) That's it...those are the only resolutions I've set myself (and fulfilled 2 of them...the 3rd is really more of a material want....and therefore...immaterial)...well...now that my studies are more or less at an end...I'm finally able to pursue other interests...and yet...I'm not feeling that sense of achievement that I thought I would ever since I've had plans in my head and raring to start my own pursuits after completion of my studies....it's starting to disturb me...what is it about humans and the rat-race they inadvertantly get caught up in? What's Life really all about? Is it pursuing your dreams one after another...how to make that first million...how to get to know that guy/girl u fancy...how to make enough to get that Gucci/Prada/LV whatnots....
Hmm...for me I think it is really a couple of factors...the biggest of which is to be thankful for health that I'm able to open my eyes every morning and see my loved ones...my family...my friends....that I'm able of body and sound of mind to do things which I love doing....to learn to be content with what I have...to learn that happiness is not about being able to afford that expensive bag in the display window...rather, it's knowing I'm loved and will be missed when I'm not around...to be at peace with myself...to be able to sleep when I want to...(ha ha that's a luxury I'm not able to afford at the moment) well...I can go on and on...
I guess....it's really a lifelong lesson...or reminder...humans are such that they're terribly forgetful creatures...they need to be reminded every so often...or they get so caught up in their own pursuits that they're blinded to everything else...well I'm no exception...in lieu of the 911 incident a person once said: "in the light of such terrible tragedy people unite together...it brings out the best in them...they show compassion...unity...they do things for others...and when it's all over...they forget...and if a tragedy strikes again...the same things happen...humans are forgetful"

'Life is not about destinations, it's about journeys'